Snow Days

Today is Friday. The third snow day, here in Redmond. Meaning no school. It really couldn't have come at a better time. The past two weeks I have been through a wide range of emotions. First I thought IVF failed again, and then I got the message the next day, that I was pregnant. For a week, I was in shock, I felt excited, and anxious to see the baby or babies in an ultrasound in the next few weeks. However, on Saturday, my body started to reject the pregnancy.  Reagan had a game in Prineville. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know where to go. I didn't want to drag anyone into my mess of emotions, but had no idea if I was overreacting or what to do. I called my friend, Lisa. She was able to guide and take me to where I needed to go.  Since, my regular doctor was off and after speaking with the doctor on call from my OB, I was told to go into the ER.

We stayed at the ER for a little over four hours. They did a blood test to check my levels, an ultrasound, and a couple of other tests. My HGC level was over 1,000, but was told I had to do another blood test on Monday. So, I waited until school was out. I then found out that my levels were at 195 and that I was in the process of miscarrying. I went to school the next day. It was an ok day. I wasn't happy about the news by any means, but was able to get through the day. I was really glad to have a snow day the following day. I thought I was over being upset and then someone at the dentist asked me on Wednesday, if I thought I might be pregnant, because if I was, I couldn't do x-rays. I told them that I still might be. Although, I know in my heart that I am not, I still have that small glimmer of hope, that one of the embryos are still there. But then, if it was, it wouldn't be healthy.

I am not the only person going through this struggle to get pregnant. It is not fun, but something will work out. Not sure what yet. But something will.

Thank you for all of you love and support.

Until next time.